I have a plan to save money then move. I’ve been wanting to move so I can experience life somewhere else.
Well lately my brain has been like, “why not just leave now?”
Then I’m like, “because that is not responsible, and I don’t have ‘just leave’ money.”
In a way I want to be spontaneous and just go with the flow and live life….I just don’t want to suffer from a spontaneous decision. I have a serious problem with second guessing and picking everything apart. I really wish I was not like this.
I’ve been trying to stop this, it’s just hard to stop a learned behavior that I’ve had since childhood. But I can’t use that as an excuse. I need to just do.
I most likely will not ‘just leave’, but maybe I will try my best to leave faster.